In the mid of 2003, I had a choice in the first place. I decided to wear hijab in the first year of high school. And being a part of minority was so challenging at that time. Until I had a moment of doubt. But, the interesting and coincidence part was my daily school uniform 'support' my personal decision to wear hijab, Masya Allah. I feel like the universe bless my decision.
At that moment, I just feel good and enough when dress in casual. I played it mostly safe with long-sleeve blouse and dark jeans because I just learned to fit in.
Year after year, I realized, dress nicely is more than just feel good and look good. It's about finding personal sense of comfort and dress respectably.
It started when I'm studying currently in university nineteen years ago. Since the first-year students, I would love to get involved in Muslim Student Association in college and join an Islamic club, for some reason. Strengthen my faith, finding calm in the storm of busyness, and connecting with my new circle. A new friend. A gorgeous woman with a beautiful soul. She's a Hafidzah. Proactive in Islamic organization and Student Executive Board (BEM). Her student number were below to me, so we often be a teamwork in a practicum project on the first level. LPDP awardee, graduate with Ph.D in Scotland & now she's a lecturer in our university. Her horizontal and vertical relationship so impressive. She's inspire me in so many ways, Masya Allah. A woman who dress modesty with long hijab and enjoying simple dress everyday with longer garments from the first day I met her. She represent modesty inside and out. Hafidzahullah. Hay Zen, I miss you.
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| A Letter that She Wrote to Me |
Over time, I began exploring a lot about my comfort. How dress should work for me, how I want to present myself and finally finding my comfort of style. Alhamdulillah. As the time goes by, I realized, my effort to beautify myself shouldn't be limited only about the dress I wear.
More than that, it's about beautify inside of me...
The way I'm thinking, the way I'm speaking, the way I give a reaction, the way I grow my relationship with Allah, how to be a good Muslim, how to increase the knowledge, how to maintain health, how to spread positive energy, how to contribute at society, how to stay down to earth. Self respect & spiritual awareness. Modesty inside and out.
It's a part of Faith ~
Dear Me, twenty two years and forever, I will always try to Fix you ~