Wednesday, September 22, 2021

Another Bloggyversary : I called it ‘Growth’


It’s been more than ten years since I love blogging at the 1st time. When the blog template (depend on my mood) always change (lol) & most of my times I used to read someone else daily life.

I still have my whole faith of blogsphere. It used to & it still does.

This little platform change in so many levels. I called it ‘growth’. Getting my first job & being paid for writing, It was great. And I find my save place here :)

But… there was a downside. I became too busy, I don’t get to do blog walk anymore. It makes me sad when I look at my own page. Learning for being good mama to my lovely 2,5 years old baby girl took so much my day. No extra time to read, no more time to write. And I miss my blog so much :’)

Sometimes, I see good pictures in Instagram & fabulous short videos on YouTube. Than I got jealous quickly :”)

But… Everytime I try to feel about this situation, every single time too I know that I would never stop. Blogging :)

Maybe… hiatus & slowing down is a better way to understanding everything :)

And I still love blogging so much ~

Thursday, April 15, 2021

The Signs


{Reminder Story}

Kau tau bagaimana rasanya tidak dicintai manusia ?

Seolah kau adalah seseorang yang tidak begitu penting kehadirannya apalagi untuk didengarkan ceritanya 

Semua yang kau lakukan tak memberi arti apa-apa

Tenang & berbahagialah :)

Kau diberi pertanda bahwa kau sedang dijaga

Lihatlah selalu ke dalam Qur’an

Kau akan banyak menemukan ceritamu di sana

Oleh sebab itu, jangan jauh-jauh darinya, ya...

Sunday, March 14, 2021

An Introduction : Another Most Beautiful Poetry

Another human being is literally growing inside me :’)

Another most beautiful poetry that Allah SWT ever write :’)

Even if we haven’t met him / her, we know he / she is already being a part of us...

Nothing else matter, you are ‘here’ and we’ll love you forever

Take care, you ~ 

Tuesday, July 21, 2020

Living, Loving, and Working at Home (when Quarantine) would be a Breeze for an Introvert

After few months of increasing anxiety about how dangerous Covid-19 was, the trill of staying at home where we safe and able work on assignment, made me believe that quarantine is the same meaning of much-needed break from everyday fast-paced and energetic routine. Especially for him. Even I know he felt a mixture of excitement and worry, lol

Well... from the first month of quarantine on March, the academy announcing the cancellation of all in-person classes, his work responsibility transitioned to an online format. Virtual discussion with his workmate or his students on WA chat, made of recorded lectures and then publish the files on the website. So far, it's easy enough for him.

Me ? I haven't had a problem not leaving the home, lol. So, as usual, I cleaned our pavilion everyday, I make our room feel extra cozy, I've created mini private kitchen behind our room, cooking sometimes, re-read my favorite book, all of tracks on Kenny G were unlocked and of course write on my personal blog.

Home used to be the place where we could recharge energy with solitude activity ~

Until someday, my extroverted friend decided to break the rules and go physically to see me. Tell me about how this pandemic forced her to stay at home for months even she has a beautiful pantry at home. Tell me about how her kids struggling with their online classes even every corner of her home connecting with Wi-Fi. It makes me think, why she need for interaction was so great, when it felt like she'd already found a way to handle it personally (?)

No, no. I'm not anti-social. I'm not shy, lol. I do enjoy social interaction too. Me personally just love to be a small part of a big conversation. Have no trouble to get more experience the outside world, I'm fine with it. Relax in a bookstore or coffee shop, to find a sense of normalcy again. But only by myself. Truly alone. Not in the same way that my extroverted friend do :)

It's made me realized that every personality (introvert, extrovert, or something between them), struggle with anxiety and processes it differently.

Not everyone is privileged enough to stay at home all along day and not everyone know how to best stay in touch with their friend online.  

Maybe an introvert doesn't always stay calm in difficult times and an extrovert could appreciate moment of quarantine.

But I think, living, loving, and working at home still would be a breeze for an Introvert :)

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

Yang Tak Terbatas Pemaklumannya

Barangkali, sebagianmu masih satu suara, berpikir bahwa sebuah pencapaian adalah apa-apa yang nampak oleh mata, tentang mimpi-mimpi yang jadi nyata. Dari tiada menjadi ada, dari tak dikenal menjadi ternama, dari bawah hingga jadi juara. Sibuk berkembang diri dan meninggi. Hingga sebagian energi habis karena merisaukan perkara-perkara yang tak punya terminal henti.

Sementara gagal, banyak sekali interpretasinya. Masih melajang saat usia dua puluh lima, telah 'melahirkan' banyak hal tapi tak bisa ikut berkontribusi menambah jumlah angka manusia, memilih tak bekerja layaknya mereka di luar sana, tak ikut dalam circle orang-orang yang dianggap penting di dunia nyata.

Manusia seolah dipaksa berkompetisi, menggapai dan memamerkan sesuatu, sampai-sampai jadi candu apresiasi.

Sebetulnya, tak salah memberi kaki pada mimpi, tak salah menjejaki mimpi sesuai inginnya hati. Yang salah adalah ketika manusia kehilangan keyakinan dan kebaikan saat tak hidup dalam keberlebihan.

Kalo sudah begini, jangan-jangan lupa lega hati itu apa.